Heavy.

I'm trying to lose some weight right now. I want my BMI (Body Mass Index) to be at a healthier number but I was getting bogged down by the actual numbers on the scale-- it feels like it's never going to be possible to get where I want just because the numbers are so far apart.

So, seeing the anxiety the scale was bringing Chris had the genius idea that he would hide the scale and that a month later we'll check and see where we are. That means 5 weeks of killer workouts and healthy eating for the sheer sake of killer workouts and healthy eating. But I am excited to get on the scale in a month but also scared-- what if nothing changes? What if that terrible number pops right back up?

When Chris and I first got together I was 10 pounds heavier than I am now. The heaviest I've ever been in my life. And forgive me for getting all mushy on you for a minute but there is such great comfort and acceptance knowing that he fell for me when I was a little tubby. So this weight loss really is for me. I'm happy the way I look but I want to be healthier.

We've been working out 6 times a week and eating REALLY healthy since January 8th and I can feel a little difference in my jeans. We're doing the big weigh-in on February 17th-- I'll let you know how it goes!

Now... it's time to hit the gym. Again.